i miss college

there. i said it. i miss college. i miss my friends. i miss my sorority. i hate to say it but i even kinda sorta miss classes. there is such a structure and a sense of security at school that i took for granted that just isn't there now. maybe if i had a real job that wouldn't be the case but i get the feeling from those friends who have jobs that something's not right there either. sure, some people love their jobs. but it's not the same. i feel old at 22. i watch way too much tv, stuff that i dont' even really like, just because it's there. there is nothing pushing me, driving at me to do something with myself. sometimes deadlines are good. sometimes having someone else push you to do something is good. self motivation is really really hard. not having money is a good motivating factor but there's only so much you can do before you lose interest. ugg. there's only so many phone calls you can make before you feel like you're accomplishing nothing. like today...i sent my resume to someone about a job. i got the job. yay you say. but, the kicker is for a 6 day job (most likely 12 hour days) i'm being paid $150. total. now how's that for motivation.

but on an even better note i just got called in for work. it's office stuff but it's better than nothing. later gators!